hibernated
Posted by rainesse on September 28, 2008
Wow! One month of no blogging activity! Gosh, I must’ve been sooo busy.
Actually, I’ve been in hiding. Believe it or not, I haven’t been feeling myself for the past month and ever since then, I’ve been in constant search of myself.
I came back now, still without an answer. Well maybe I just got a clue that will eventually lead me to where I’m supposed to go. And that clue is to love myself more and just be happy by doing the things that I love.
Allen, my soulmate who has given me superhuman heart, feels that I’m experiencing the so-called Quarter Life crisis. It’s the urge to find yourself amidst everything that you think is you. Shamefully, I think he’s right. hehe. Why shamefully? I don’t know. I just don’t like finding myself in a very confused state and so unsure of myself. I’ve always liked things that are SURE. You know, unchangeable. 
But I guess life is not like that, never has been and never will be. A human being has to BEND to its will as it tries to make you flexible and pliable… less resistant to whatever it makes of you. I find it awfully annoying and sad but I have to admit that I’m already bending to it.
Sigh.
God has always been good to me so I don’t think there’s anything I should worry about. Besides, I’m just at a crossroad where I have to decide who I am…
what’s so big about that? 
